Landslide

" Well I've been afraid of changes,
Coz I built my life around you
Well time makes you bolder, children gets older,
I'm getting older too

So I, took my love and I took it down
Climb a mountain and I turn around
And I saw my reflection through the snow covered hills
and the landslide brought me down"

Yup, that phrase perfectly describe my situation right now
and that is so wrong of me
to have built my life around you.
when i shouldve built my life around my  Maker
Allah the Almighty

Now I face the consequences

I should try to think about it like this

Maybe with him gone I would gain new perspective in life
With him gone, I can dekatkan diri dengan Allah SWT lagi
With him gone, I'll discover a whole new world

Trying hard to find the silver lining in this one

Sebenarnye, ko poyo apesal. Padehal ade org lg penting and ber hak dari ko die left behind

Drng tk kate ape pun

And maybe, if he ignore me so much, that I finally be able to leave him

For good..

In Shaa Allah.

Whirlwind Emotions

Since last Friday.. My emotions are going whirlwind and i'm pretty sure 50% of it is because of you.
The other 50% is because of my dissertation.

I seriously can't bear the thought of you going so far away from me. Not being able to see you every other day, is just ...

No words syg..

I've been crying non stop since last Sunday, (yup the menstrual cycle sure does help) and I am patiently waiting for this phase to wear out. I hope it's soon coz this is no joke man.

Ape sy nak buat kalau sy rindu nanti?
I kinda lost my motivation to go to work now.
And how about our little arrangement? How will it works out?

Arggghhh

*menghadapi masalah tekanan emosi*

Syg je la kawan sy.. tempat sy mengadu..tempat hilangkan stress..

sigh..

And i'm sure i'll be selfish if i asked you not to go

I mean it's responsibility. Your responsibility

Sy berdoa supaya emosi sy ditenangkan dan sy berdoa supaya ada hikmah disebalik ap yang terjadi.

Sy berdoa supaya Allah tunjuk ap jalan yang terbaik untuk kita..
Sy berdoa supaya Allah kurangkan perasaan ini dan menghindari sy daripada ap yang tak baik untuk saya
Sy berdoa untuk semua yang baik baik saja untuk kita.

In shaa Allah.