Day 05 of #8weeksofukwrehab

Day 05

I am the kinda person who likes her music, and like to match the feelings I felt at that moment with the music that I;m listening.


So in the past few days that my emotions have gone stray, I found myself listening to

1) Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One
I know most people have a love/hate relationship with this song, so just hear out the reasons.
I found myself thinking, what if? What if youre not the one for me. I mean I never ever EVER felt the way I do for you with someone else. Even with *e*o.. (I just have to do that do i? =p)

"If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side"








Ok reading this can tear me up.. sobs sobs

Why the heck does my relationship need to be this damn complicated!


I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life 

This literally sums up my feelings..
And silly me crying on my bed at nights when you said to take care of myself and to not to worry about him so much..(yup, like thats gonna happen)

2) Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon

"I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back

At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself talking to the moon.
Trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too.
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?"

Yes syg.. I want you back. Like now. Sekarang.
I think the longest we go without seeing each other is 2 weeks (raya hrtu) and damn it's hard. It's too damn hard. And now, with no prospects of seeing him for the next 3 months is... I dont know.. Heartbreaking. Sadness.

Saya sentiasa doakan syg.

Hopefully I'll survive without major incidents.