UPDATE! (3 years later =p)

Hi,

You'd hoped I've grown up in these 3 years?
I guess I am.
All grown up.
Grown up to my troubles,
Grown up to my worries,
Most importantly,
Grown up to you,
Resistant to you,
Unaffected,
Over you.

Slowly but surely i will get there,
A peaceful place where there is everything,
Everything I needed,
Everything but you.

I hate that you mean everything to me,
When I am nothing to you,
Your sweet empty words echoed through my brain,
Four years, I believed,
When you say that you love me,
Did you really?

What I did is the best I could,
Your ignorance, your act,
They're bound to reveal themselves,
What hurts the most is that,
My pain, insignificant to you,
I, insignificant to you.

You're a damn coward,
You deserve her and her you,
Promise myself that I wont succumb,
I wont go back to my dark past,
What had happened, happened,

I'll survive this,
And when I do, I'll come back stronger,
InshaAllah =)